I came across this quote this morning while reading about all the recent shootings. Last night I went to sleep and didn’t hear about the Dallas shootings until Kahele filled me in this morning. I drove to work this morning with fear consuming my mind. I fear for my children and their safety. I fear that they will be in the wrong place at the wrong time. I fear that their future is one where they are afraid to run to law enforcement if they need help. I fear that their future is one where they will have to hold a firearm to protect themselves. I fear that Maui will go off to college in just a year where I wont be 15 minutes away from him when he needs me.
This fear becomes so real when you are able to watch these videos of people dying right on camera. I used to watch CNN in the past and “hear” about the events of tragic shootings and literally cry for the loss that these families had to deal with. Now…. I mean you’re witnessing it with your own eyes. I have only witnessed one death- the death of my grandfather in the hospital dying peacefully. And I’ve been in the same home when my brother-in-law passed from cancer which was expected. I have NEVER seen anyone shot and killed with my own eyes. I’ve seen more people dying on video in the last week than I have in my whole life.
This world is a scary place and as a mother I have the role of protecting my children and I pray so hard that I’m able to do just that. I will do EVERYTHING in my power to raise them right. I will now “preach” to them that “All lives matter” and that every person is someones child, mother, father, brother or sister and to think about that before they show disrespect or hatred towards anyone. I want my kids to LIVE life to its fullest. I want them to travel and see the world, go to concerts, visit amusement parks or even something as small as going to a movie without worrying that at any moment they could be shot.