Life lately… a little venting ahead…

Hey everyone!!!! I haven’t posted in a while because I really have nothing to post. Six out of seven days a week we’ve been so routine wake up, EAT, watch tv, log on to school, EAT, play some PS VR games, EAT, play outside, watch tv, EAT…. I mean, it’s become pretty terrible. And every day I’m cooking and cleaning between all this because…

1. it’s cheaper to cook than takeout for a family of 5. We’ve been trying a lot of recipes that my 12 year old finds online. We’ve done the whipped coffee, flaming hot Cheetos fried mozzarella, jolly rancher slush, s’mores cupcakes…

2. Even when your whole family is in their PJs all day, the laundry load hasn’t changed since before the pandemic. It’s so weird! Why do I still do a load a day?

3. My youngest daughter has been really into building forts… IN EVERY ROOM! She uses all 300 pillows in the house, and about 20 blankets along with every couch, chair, shelf, doorknob and table! We can’t get to the damn bathroom without risking our lives. But we let her do it because she’s 4 and anyone with a kid around her age at home right now knows that it’s come to the point of keeping them active, creative and happy with whatever resources we have. I cannot wake up to those forts. It will ruin my whole day if I wake up to a mess… ask my family! So every night the forts get cleaned up just to be rebuilt the next day.

We’ve tried to reserve 1 day a week to take a drive around the island and let the kids jump in the water. Parks and beaches have been closed and people have been getting fined if they’re not in the water. I don’t like the beach or going in the ocean so this last week I was too paranoid to risk getting ticketed.

However, I did get an alert yesterday saying that parks and beaches are open BUT… you can’t be sitting on the sand and they playgrounds are closed. WTF?! How is that any different than the rules 2 days ago? I have no idea who’s writing this shit! It’s got me so upset that all day long I’m getting updates on the new rules just to see the rule pretty much saying the exact same thing! All day I’m reminded that school years been canceled, how unemployment is backed up, how many new cases, how many deaths, how many recovered. Reminders to stay at home and don’t forget mask and gloves when you go out. How does this reminder every day not make us nervous?

It triggers my anxiety! I can’t even meditate, literally can’t focus on my breathing half the time. At night I try to fall asleep at a normal time but I’ve been experiencing insomnia. I NEVER have a problem with insomnia outside of my pregnancies. Over the last month plus.. I’ve had a few migraines and usually I get them once every couple of months. My skin had just been terrible. I really try to drink only water all day but I feel like the alcohol intake at the end of the day may be doing something that’s causing the bad skin… or maybe it’s the sweets.. hmmm? There’s been insomnia, moments of anxiety, irritability, depression for a week or so after my son moved to Vegas and just all around low energy all day.

Pretty sunset

I feel like I should make a daily schedule… or maybe a daily bucket list and try to knock off as many things as possible. I gotta head on over to Pinterest and get some inspiration. Be safe friends…

It’s been a rough week

Hi guys! This week has been tough… on Sunday evening I got a migraine headache that lasted til Tuesday afternoon. This made it really hard to spend time with my son and his family before they got on a plane on Monday morning to Las Vegas. So yes, already having a migraine I started to cry because they left, which didn’t help my headache at all and actually made it worse.

I pretty much stayed in bed on Tuesday and Wednesday. But on Thursday I was feeling better and needed some fresh air to lift my spirits. So we went for a drive and stopped off to let the kids swim in the water. We were able to spend about 20 minutes there because aria was ready and they are handing out citations to anyone not in the water. So we headed home to BBQ.

They did some running before jumping in.

I hope everyone has a great Easter Sunday!

My weekend!

Yesterday we took our youngest for a ride. She was the only one up because my other kids have been staying up all night and sleeping all day. We drove towards the north shore. We didn’t quite get there because we could see the dark clouds rolling in and the temperature drop.

We pulled over for a bit so that aria could play in the sand. We didn’t plan to do this so we didn’t have any swim clothes for her. No one was around and it was the perfect spot to get some fresh air while she had fun.

On our drive home we pulled over to see some of the horses on the ranch. They’re so beautiful. Aria was in awe of them so up close.

Saturday 4-4-20

Good morning! Yesterday was another lovely uneventful day ending with a great night. Some good news… aria decided that I’m the best mommy ever and wants to live with us again. Phew! I mentioned yesterday that she wanted to go and live with her grandma. I think she’s just craving her normal life at the park and beach.

I bought this DIY dollhouse off of amazon. I had no idea that everything was going to have to be constructed by me. I thought that at least the milk cartons and shelves would be prebuilt for me. Nope, I literally have to do everything!!! The box says that it’s about a 20 hour project. I’m sure it’ll take me a little longer. I’ll keep you updated on the progress.

Had to make another trip to the grocery store again. For some reason after all these years of me being the only chai lover in the house, everyone all of a sudden likes it too. It was on sale today so I bought a couple of boxes. I took this picture to send to my daughter. But it’s part of my quarantine journal so I’m including it.

My youngest has been really into building forts with our furniture and tons of sheets and blankets. It never lasts and she whines every time it falls apart. So last night I helped her to make one in my bedroom. we tied a cal king sheet to a shelf and put her toddler bed in it where it created a teepee like shape. She loves it!

Later on I was sitting outside and my neighbor was having a FaceTime party with her friends. She was drinking and singing and dancing all by herself in front of her laptop with all of her friends in the chat. I was cracking up the whole time because she literally had no Idea or didn’t care who could see her or hear her and she was just having the time of her life. It was the most entertaining nights I’ve had in a while. I love the idea of this!

Friday 4-3-20

I woke up thinking it was Saturday. It took a couple of hours til I realized it was Friday. Such a weird feeling.

It makes me a little happier knowing that I have an extra day with my son and grandkids. I don’t know if I mentioned this, my son, daughter in law and my two grand babies are moving to Vegas on Monday. It’s been planned for months and their car is already there. It’s scary with everything that’s going on right now. I wish they would just cancel plans but it’s been set in motion and they’re new life awaits them. I’ve been having major anxiety for the last couple of days knowing that Monday is creeping up on us.

Here’s aria with her little niece and nephew.

Ok moving on before I have an emotional breakdown… yesterday my youngest told me that she’s so bored and doesn’t like it over here because we don’t take her to the beach or the playground. Tried to explain that they’re all closed but she’s 4 and won’t hear any of it. She told me… “I’m going to move with grandma tomorrow”. Thinking she was just tired and grumpy we let her rant. This morning, the first thing she said when she opened her eyes was “ok time for me to go. Can someone please drop me off?” then proceeded to gather her clothes and tell us she’ll miss us and we can come visit her. She is so headstrong! But she is the cutest.

I feel like she’s been the hardest during this quarantine. The older ones can keep themselves busy with their devices and now that they’ve started online classes they’re actually doing a lot of homework. But Aria loves playing outside and is so full of energy all day long. I’m thinking we’re gonna take her for another drive today.

Stay safe and healthy… oh and don’t be like me and realize half way through the day that I haven’t had any water. Drink lots of water!!!

Thursday 4-2-20

How is everyone doing? I haven’t had much to share in the last couple of days. I’ve noticed that when you’re not allowed to leave your house, Except to go to the grocery store, there is way more food consumption than usual. I’ve become a couch potato, laying in my pajamas all day reading and catching up on my reality shows.

I have been setting aside some time to meditate because I’ve been experiencing lots of anxiety and paranoia whenever we leave the house to pick up essentials. I’ll walk into a grocery store and just let my mind go crazy. It starts to physically affect me. I feel my stomach start cramping, my hands get clammy and I break out in a cold sweat. I try to social distance in the store and hold my breath if someone walks past me. I come home in fear that Im bringing something back home to my family. And it doesn’t help that ALL day long I’m getting alerts on my phone that keep reminding me of how serious this virus is. Meditation helps me to center myself help myself be in the moment.

Today I’m vowing to get some exercise. Maybe I’ll do some yoga with my daughters? Or have a little dance party? It doesn’t look like the rain will allow us to go outside today so some indoor activity will have to do.

Here are some photos that I took over the last couple of days. Lots of food being cooked here.

My grandson is just the cutest
We have a little hill in the back of our house that arias been enjoying exploring.
Kahele has to pick up something in town and bought us some manapua from Happy Days
I read this book in a day
I watched the entire first season of this show… in a day!
Burgers on the grill
Kabobs are an easily way to make sure we’re getting our veggies.

Thursday 4-2-20

How is everyone doing? I haven’t had much to share in the last couple of days. I’ve noticed that when you’re not allowed to leave your house, Except to go to the grocery store, there is way more food consumption than usual. I’ve become a couch potato, laying in my pajamas all day reading and catching up on my reality shows.

I have been setting aside some time to meditate because I’ve been experiencing lots of anxiety and paranoia whenever we leave the house to pick up essentials. I’ll walk into a grocery store and just let my mind go crazy. It starts to physically affect me. I feel my stomach start cramping, my hands get clammy and I break out in a cold sweat. I try to social distance in the store and hold my breath if someone walks past me. I come home in fear that Im bringing something back home to my family. And it doesn’t help that ALL day long I’m getting alerts on my phone that keep reminding me of how serious this virus is. Meditation helps me to center myself help myself be in the moment.

Today I’m vowing to get some exercise. Maybe I’ll do some yoga with my daughters? Or have a little dance party? It doesn’t look like the rain will allow us to go outside today so some indoor activity will have to do.

Here are some photos that I took over the last couple of days. Lots of food being cooked here.

My grandson is just the cutest
We have a little hill in the back of our house that arias been enjoying exploring.
Kahele has to pick up something in town and bought us some manapua from Happy Days
I read this book in a day
I watched the entire first season of this show… in a day!
Burgers on the grill
Kabobs are an easily way to make sure we’re getting our veggies.

Sunday 3-29-20

Hi all! Hope everyone is doing well. It was another cozy day today. I’m sitting outside because it’s a chilly 73 degrees tonight. Yes, here in Hawaii we consider that chilly. I did some baking today. I’ve been spending a lot of time on Pinterest looking for recipes. I’ve been cooking all of our food for the last couple of weeks so I need to keep it interesting for my family.

For breakfast, I made this crescent crusted omelette. I used the canned rolls, added some eggs cheese and bacon and baked it. It was all right. The kids loved it but me, not so much.

I had some cans of coconut milk so I made some haupia rice pudding. This was awesome. I got the recipe from my grandma. Here’s the recipe:

**3/4 cup rice (I used calrose) ** 3 cups (2cans) coconut milk ** 1/2 cup sugar ** 1 tsp vanilla extract.

Combine milk, sugar and vanilla in a medium saucepan.  Bring to a boil, stirring occasionally.

Gradually stir in rice, cover pan and cook over low heat, stirring occasionally for 30 minutes or until most of the liquid is absorbed. Remove from heat and cool.

My kids and I like to eat it warm but I love to chill some and top it with various toppings. Here are some things I had in tins as garnishes.

Here is a picture of our beautiful sunset. As I’m sitting out here I notice that it even seems quieter than usual. I’m wondering if it’s the lack of cars on the road? It’s so peaceful.