October! My favorite month!

Tomorrow is the first  day of my favorite month!  What’s so special about this month?  Well let’s see….

It’s Fall!  I know that September 22 was the first official day to mark the fall season, but October is the month where it really starts to feel like all of the holiday festivities are about to begin.  It makes me soooo happy.  Here’s a list of why I love October.

~ The weather starts to get a little cozier


~ Businesses and front porches everywhere begin to decorate for the holidays and everything starts looking so festive.


~ The smells!  I love fall scents. The apple and pumpkin spice candles… no words!


~ Pumpkin!  One of my favorite flavors.  Pumpkin pie, pumpkin crunch, pumpkin scones & pumpkin spice latte.


~ Halloween.  I’m especially excited for this Halloween because last year I was in the hospital trying to hold off on giving birth to Aria too early.  This year will be her first Halloween and I cannot wait.


~ Movies!  I have so many movies that I love watching during this time of the year.  Hocus Pocus, When Harry met Sally, Halloween (parts 1-100 lol), Beetlejuice, Clue, Hotel Transylvania, Adams Family & Monster House just to name a few.


~ Books.  There is no better way to read a book than when you’re snuggled in bed with the rain pouring outside your window.  Some of the books on my list for this month are

~ Red lipstick and fall makeup.  I don’t wear red lipstick normally but the changing of seasons gives me a reason to wear some darker shades of makeup which is always super fun.


~ MY BIRTHDAY!  What a great month to be born right?!



Sometimes change can be really hard


Maui (left), Kuha’o (back center), Marli (eldest niece far right), Malika (youngest niece left), Tea (center), and baby Aria.

Today my sister and my nieces will be hopping on a plane to Las Vegas where a fresh start to a new life awaits them.  I cried on my drive to work this morning after kissing them while they were still asleep.  I don’t know how I am going to be emotionally with this huge change.  My sister and I have always lived within 2 minutes of each other; we did everything together and made sure that our kids were tighter than any cousins could be.  My eldest niece is the same age as Kuha’o and my youngest niece is the same age as Tea.  They’re more like siblings rather than cousins.  I know that the separation is going to be extremely hard on the kids. When my brother-in-law was sick with cancer they moved in with us and have remained with us even after his passing.  My sister one day just decided that she needed a change.  Everything here is a constant reminder that my brother-in-law is no longer here and she just needs to get away from it all.

My heart is aching, but I know that with the loss of my brother-in-law they need to do this for themselves and I support my sister and her decisions.  I just hope that they find happiness.  I pray that my nieces love their new schools and make a ton of new friends.  I worry because growing up on an island we just live a really different lifestyle than in the mainland.  I’m dreading the fact that I won’t be able to see my nieces and won’t be as involved in their lives the way I have been.  I hope this time away will be a time for my sister and her daughters to bond and heal together and hopefully they’ll wanna move back really soon!

Three T.V. Shows I’m Obsessed With

And they’re not reality shows…. what the whaaaa?!  So of course you all know that I will forever be obsessed with all things Real Housewives… but I’ve been binging on these shows lately, they are so good.


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What if the U.S. lost WWII and Germany and Japan took over the U.S.A?  Well in this show that is the outcome.  Kahele and I have been watching this show and absolutely loving it.  Very interesting!




It took me one episode to get hooked.  Not really the type of series that I would even give a thought about watching but I’ve heard some great reviews and decided to give it a go!  I’m on the 5th episode of the first season and its soooo good.  If you like movies like Fame or Center Stage  I think you’ll really enjoy this show.  A kind of “behind the curtain” look of what happens in the lives of the members of the New York Symphony.




My new favorite show!!!  I crack up laughing every time I watch an episode.  You know when Tina Fey is the producer you’re gonna get a great show.  I love all of the witty quotes that you hear during each episode. Its about Kimmy who after 15 years in a cult is rescued and takes charge of her life.  She moves to New York for a fresh start. She moves in with Titus a gay wanna-be Broadway performer.  I highly recommend this show if you’re a fan of shows like The New Girl, The Office, Friends and SNL


“An eye for an eye makes the whole world blind”- Ghandi


I came across this quote this morning while reading about all the recent shootings.  Last night I went to sleep and didn’t hear about the Dallas shootings until Kahele filled me in this morning.  I drove to work this morning with fear consuming my mind.  I fear for my children and their safety.  I fear that they will be in the wrong place at the wrong time.  I fear that their future is one where they are afraid to run to law enforcement if they need help.  I fear that their future is one where they will have to hold a firearm to protect themselves.  I fear that Maui will go off to college in just a year where I wont be 15 minutes away from him when he needs me.

This fear becomes so real when you are able to watch these videos of people dying right on camera.  I used to watch CNN in the past and “hear” about the events of tragic shootings and literally cry for the loss that these families had to deal with.  Now…. I mean you’re witnessing it with your own eyes.  I have only witnessed one death- the death of my grandfather in the hospital dying peacefully.  And I’ve been in the same home when my brother-in-law passed from cancer which was expected.  I have NEVER seen anyone shot and killed with my own eyes.  I’ve seen more people dying on video in the last week than I have in my whole life.

This world is a scary place and as a mother I have the role of protecting my children and I pray so hard that I’m able to do just that.  I will do EVERYTHING in my power to raise them right.  I will now “preach” to them that “All lives matter”  and that every person is someones child, mother, father, brother or sister and to think about that before they show disrespect or hatred towards anyone.  I want my kids to LIVE life to its fullest.  I want them to travel and see the world, go to concerts, visit amusement parks or even something as small as going to a movie without worrying that at any moment they could be shot.

ABC Game

A Age: 35- I swear I had to do the math for that one.

B Biggest Fear:  Cats

C Current time: 4:20 pm… oh the irony of that one

D Drink you last had:  Pink Lemonade

E Every day starts with: Snuggling whoever is sleeping next to me.  Don’t worry its not random men it just could be Kahele or one of my kiddos

F Favorite song currently:  Adele’s Send my love (to your new lover)  Can’t get enough.

G Ghosts, are they real?:  Of course they’re spirits

H Hometown: Kaneohe

I In love with: My family

J Jealous of: Anyone at Disneyland right now

K Killed Someone?:  Only in my dreams

L Last time you cried: 2 nights ago

M Middle name:  Leinani

N Number of siblings: 1 sister

O One wish: Health and Happiness for my family

P Person you last called: My daughter

R Reason to smile:  Um…. Maybe waking up every morning? Duh lol

S Song last sang: Fallen by Sarah Mclachlan.  It’s been in my head allllll dayyyyy

T Time you woke up: 12am & 4 am to feed my baby girl and then for good at 5:30am

U Underwear color: Pink and Black

V Vacation Destination:  Vegas Baby

W worst habit: Interrupting in the middle of someone’s sentence/ story.  I always feel like the information I need to share is too important to wait.

X Xrays you’ve had:  Gull bladder & Kidney

Y Your favorite food:  Can’t pick one so I’ll say pizza.

Z Zodiac sign: I’m a Libra so don’t try lying to me… I’ll know!

A great week ahead

Hi guys!  Last week was a mess.  You know how you  have those weeks where it seems like things just go wrong one after the other?  Well that was my week.  I would wake up stressed which caused a ripple effect in my entire day. I was finding myself crying while driving and even while in the bathroom at work.  It wasn’t one major event that triggered this, it just gradually happened.  This is not new to me; I’ve suffered from anxiety and depression over the years, pretty much since I was a young girl and its gotten way better over the years because of learning how to meditate and little exercises that help me to deal.  But there are still times when things like money (or lack thereof), arguments with others and work can make my emotions just go haywire to the point where I breakdown.


This morning I woke up to get myself ready for work and my kids ready for their baseball opening ceremony and things were not working out for me from the start.  I couldn’t find paperwork that I needed, my baby wakes up screaming for a bottle in the middle of me trying to get the other 2 up, my phone falls in the toilet and on my way to work there’s a marathon causing traffic.


I took a deep breath and just prayed.  I pray to my grandpa and nana, who have passed, all the time.  I ask them for guidance and to send peace and calmness my way.  This morning I included my brother-in-law in my prayer.  Well after getting out of my car and walking to my office I looked up and I see Kahele’s grandmother’s favorite flower, the tiger lily, right in front of me.  She passed in November of last year.  I took it as a sign and the feeling that I got just seeing that flower was amazing.  It was like dark clouds opening up and light surrounding me.  I realized walking to work that all these things that cause stress are so small in the whole scheme of things in this life.  Life is so short and to spend so much of my time stressing out really isn’t worth it because in the end we all end up in the same state on our deathbeds reflecting on how we lived our lives.  I don’t want to look back and see how much time I let stress for little things ruin my days.  I know that I’m still going to have situations that arise and I’ll feel angry, sad or stressed but I hope that I can get over it quickly and move on from it.


So today I am declaring this next week be a great one!  I’m going to wake up in the morning with a positive attitude, smile through the stress that may present itself and just count all of the blessings in my life.  Here’s to day one of my best week ever!

The Benefits of Water

For myself, when I’m looking for relaxation WATER is always the best bet. Water is so healing. Let’s just think about it. When you have muscle cramps you soak in hot water, when you’re suffering from a headache a cold shower can soothe it away, when you need to cleanse your body water does this from both the outside and in. Even the sound of rain and the waves of the ocean can bring peace and serenity within you. At church we bless ourselves with holy water. The uses for water are endless. Here are my favorite things about water.


The way it can turn any day into a cozy day.


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Soaking in a tub of water with dim lighting is the perfect ending to a hectic day.  You literally soak your troubles away.


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The sound of water can bring harmony to any room.


The ocean in all its beauty can transport you to a place of peace away from this crazy world


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Now this is what I’m talking about!  Water therapy in a spa is probably the closest thing to heaven.  When I go to a Spa with a jaquizzi I take full advantage of it.  The quietness, with the soft lighting and soothing music while soaking all of my tension away….. Priceless.