I feel like I’m in the twilight zone! A rant…

How’s everyone doing? I hope that you’re all getting by in the crazy world. I’m gonna be super honest right now and just say that it’s been hard lately. From the rule changes in social distancing, financial struggles, to personal mental and physical health… it hasn’t been good. In school now they’ve changed the social distance rule from 6 feet to 3 feet… why? I mean what the heck? No more than 5 people in a public restroom, if you’re person number six you need to wait outside behind the blue tape for someone to come out before you go in, only you don’t know how many people are in the restroom so you enter to see that 5 people are in there before you can exit to wait behind the tape. It’s all so confusing. Also, why is it that if you’re vaccinated, you still have to wear a mask? If you’re safe from both contracting or giving because you’re vaccinated why can’t you go maskless?

As I’ve shared before, I work at a high school and some of our students attended school during spring break last week, yesterday we were sent home because we were exposed to someone (who I was sitting right next to all day last week Wednesday) tested positive. So of course I go home and was told that I should get tested just in case. I didn’t get tested because I’ve had a handful of family members who were receiving false positive and negative results, some were even receiving results without even getting tested at all. So, if I have to quarantine for 10 days anyway what’s the point? Well, I get a call from my company yesterday saying that I’m no longer on the list because I wasn’t in the same class as this person on Thursday or Friday and can come back to work without a even taking a test! I don’t know what the heck a 24 hour difference makes but that just didn’t make sense to me. I’m home today because I already planned to be home but they’re saying to come back to work tomorrow. HOW DOES THIS MAKE SENSE? I seriously feel like we’re puppets being controlled by…. I don’t even know who at this point.

I worry about my kids. Where is the freedom? What happened to free speech? I tell my kids “to conduct themselves like there’s a camera video taping them at all times. Keep your personal opinions to yourself”. There are people out there looking for confrontation and debate every day. Call a girl “ma’am” and if she identifies herself as a boy, guess what? You’re wrong. Books are being canceled, holidays are being canceled, school mascots are being canceled! Religion and peoples beliefs are being judged to the point where people are scared to be proud of what they believe. Is it me or does it feel like a deliberate separation of cultures, religions and lifestyles being done to us in the most manipulative way? With BLM and LGBTQ, which should be positive movements, there are people out there making them just the opposite. I wish we lived in a world where everyone was just respectful. That’s it! No matter what you identify as, be that person, but respect when someone doesn’t understand it, and for those who don’t understand or even disagree… just be respectful, maybe educate yourself (or not if that’s what you choose), but most importantly, let people live their lives in peace and happiness.

I’ve lived in Hawaii my whole life and honestly…. I’ve never experienced any of this stuff growing up. We’re such a melting pot of culture and religion that we all just got along and if we didn’t like someone?… don’t associate with them! Simple as that! Most locals here have more than 3 nationalities, and a lot include having a polynesian, asian and european literally all corners of the globe! We don’t really experience racism. So for this to be happening here, I blame social media. Our kids are so easily influenced to follow the opinions of these famous (and not so famous) people on tik tok or IG. I want my children to be independent thinkers and not be put on blast if it differs from what the rest of society thinks. If you’re not harming anyone you should be able to feel the way you feel.

The other day I was cooking pork chops and I was talking to my 16yo and said to him “I like to grab the pork chops with a lot of fat on the edge”… here comes my 13 year old Tik Tok addicts saying “MOM! DID YOU JUST CALL THE PORK CHOP FAT!” A clear indication that I need to snap her back to reality. There will not be any of this stupid non-sense talk in my house.

HAVE A GREAT DAY EVERYONE!

A fun post…

Hi all! It’s been a while since I last posted. I honestly have not been feeling too good. I’ve been experiencing migraine headaches a lot more than usual lately. I think it’s because of the face mask that I have to wear all day long at work. I’m not getting enough oxygen and my sinus area is sensitive to the pressure of the face mask. Has anyone else been experiencing this? I have a couple of co-workers who say they’re going though the same thing.

I’ve been trying to find post ideas because I don’t have much to share… I literally wake up, go to work, come home, cook, clean, sleep and repeat. But I did see some blogs with an “all about me” questionnaire and since I haven’t done one in a while, I thought it would be fun to do that here.

  • What is your biggest fear? Cats, don’t know why, but I am so scared of cats that if I see one I panic to the point where I have a hard time breathing.
  • If you could change one thing about yourself what would it be? I think that my patience, or lack there of, is something I wish I could have more control over. I get so frustrated when people are always late.
  • What is your favorite thing about your career? I love working with the kids that I work with. I work with kids on the spectrum and being around them all day is so much better than any other job I’ve ever had.
  • What makes you roll on the floor laughing? Youtube videos of people slipping on ice. I feel so terrible for them but it’s so hilarious, especially when the person filming is cracking up too.
  • If you could choose to do anything for a day what would it be? To sit around and be catered to, while someone cooks and cleans everything. Basically, switching roles with anyone in my home.
  • What is your favorte thing to sing on karaoke night? Shoop by Salt and Pepa. I know every lyric and it’s pretty much my go to song.
  • How many pillows do you sleep with? 2 one for my head and one to hug.
  • What was the last book you read? Mexican Gothic by Silvia Moreno-Garcia.
  • What is your view outside your workplace window? Right here….
  • Where are you originally from? Born and raised on the Windward side of Oahu.

This was a fun one. Maybe I’ll do one with more personal questions in another post.

Have a great day everyone… until next post!

My week in photos…

Hi everyone! Happy Sunday! The weather here is beautiful, some drizzles and cool temperature make it a lazy Sunday indoors watching movies. If the rain holds up I plan to take a little walk with my daughter around the neighborhood. I spend most of the weekend home, it stops me from spending money and it’s practically the only time I have to do my house cleaning. But I do like to take short walks just to get some fresh air and a little bit of exercise.

Me and my girlfriends started a text thread where we share “a photo a day” with each other. So, now I’m always trying to capture a pretty photo to compete with the others *heehee*. Here are some of the photos that I took last week.

Our classroom store

If you’ve been following my blog for a while then you know that I work in SPED department at a local high school. A lot of our students work for reinforcements. So, we created a classroom store!

I’m loving the way it turned out. Most of the items were donated and some were purchased by staff. During the week the kids are able to earn tickets for good behavior, completed assignments, etc. On Fridays they’re able to take the tickets earned and purchase what they want. So far, it’s been working great as a way to get the students to focus on doing their work and earning their tickets.

Some old photos of my grams and papa

I love old photos! Even if they’re of people I don’t know in a magazine, there’s something about knowing that a moment so long ago is a captured memory that lives on. I was going through some old photos and came across a few of my grandma and grandpa (my moms parents) while they were together. They divorced when my mom was young and sadly my grandma never got remarried. I don’t even remember her having a boyfriend in my lifetime. She now has dementia and sometimes can’t even remember my mom. I’ve been so nervous to visit her because I couldn’t bear it if she didn’t recognize me. Looking through these photos got me a little choked up. Just seeing how young they both were and how blessed they’ve both been with so much time here on earth.

I constantly find myself saying how fast the years are going by, and to think, they were around my age when I was born. I now have grandchildren of my own so it’s really hitting me that I’ve got to cherish these days.

I’m gonna start making more of these types of post. Not only do I love looking at these photos, I think it’s an easy way to preserve them just in case something happens to the originals. I’ll be sharing more soon. Til then, take care of yourselves during this upcoming crazy week. It should be interesting.

Yoga for my anxiety

A beauty sunset from my in-laws house

We are in some crazy times right now guys! With all the news about the presidency and riots and people just feeling like it’s the end of days, I’ve had to stop reading and watching the news. I had my annual doctor checkup last week and my doctor asked about how I was doing with my anxiety and I was honest with her. The unsettling feeling inside has definitely been triggering my anxiety. I’m determined to start this new year off nice and have it continue to be the BEST YEAR EVER! She suggested that I try yoga. My first thought was ‘yeah, I’m not flexible at all’. She said there are a bunch of 20 minute yoga videos for beginners on YouTube. I found one that was perfect for me. I’ve done it twice now and I gotta say, I feel really good afterward.

https://youtu.be/_2PB4J5h7bI

Im so terrible about sticking to things, especially when it comes to a healthy lifestyle. But for now I’ve decided to take baby steps… I’m only going to drink alcohol on Fridays and Saturdays (I’ve already failed but will keep trying, after quarantine it’s become a part of my nightly routine unfortunately), I will try to meditate at least 3 times a week, keep it positive and yoga as much as I can.

I’ve also been using my essential oil diffuser so create a calm atmosphere in my home and bedroom. I’ve been experimenting with a bunch of blends. I’ll share some in upcoming posts. Here is the blend that I love to do yoga and meditate with.

Happy New Year!

Me and my ‘Ohana

Hi all! Hope you’re all having a great start to 2021. I think that most of us are using January as a clean slate, even if things look like they’re not going to change any time soon. Here in Hawaii, the COVID cases have remained in the hundreds, even getting up to 200 one day in the last couple of weeks. Everyone’s pretty iffy about weather or not to get the vaccine when it becomes available to the public. I have a couple of family members that had to get it in order to work, and so far they say that they haven’t experienced any side effects or any changes.

Have you made any resolutions for this year? My resolution is just to try and make the best out of any situation and keep calm. So many times this year I’ve gotten so frustrated over little things. Being home with Kahele and the kids for those months during the lockdown was something that we weren’t prepared for and there definitely were the highs and lows about that whole situation. When I had the opportunity to go back to work, I could not wait to get out of the house. I was beginning to get snappy about little things, and the feeling of being confined and unsure about our finances definitely didn’t help. But I got through it and realize that it’s not worth getting worked up over things that you have no control over.

I’ve been making a huge effort to recognize when I need a mental break and instead of pushing through to get everything done (cleaning, work, cooking, etc.) Ill lock my bedroom door and take a 15 minute power nap or jump in the shower to rejuvenate before taking on the task. This has helped tremendously with my anxiety. I would hear people say how important it is to take care of yourself and love yourself before you are fully able to love and take care of another, and I’d think to myself “I have no time for myself” and overexert myself to the point of absolute exhaustion. Since taking the “me time” I need, I’ve felt a huge difference in my attitude towards things and people. Fifteen minutes is all it takes, and if I find that I don’t have 15 minutes, I’ll listen to some good music or a podcast while cooking or cleaning. Anything that feels like a treat to myself helps.

Here’s a video I took with my IPhone on New Years Eve. This is overlooking Pearl Harbor. Our island went crazy with the fireworks this year!

Speaking of treats…. I bought myself a new laptop for Christmas. I made sure that it was small enough to take to work with me, so I’ll be able to blog a lot more. So, until next post, please take care of yourselves! Happy New Year!!!

My top 5 favorite entertainment of 2020/Covid

Let’s just admit that when we think about the past year, quarantine is a lot of what we remember. Most of our year has been spent with restrictions on socializing and many of us remember our last gathering being Christmas, New Years Eve and Super Bowl. After that, there were very few if any family parties for almost an entire year!

During our quarantine we relied on our devices to keep us sane and not completely cut off from the outside world. Most of my day was spent on my phone or in front of my TV while still in my pajamas. I have to admit that it was nice for a little bit… but then I was over it pretty quick. I wanted to share with you some of my favorite things that I watched or read while stuck inside.

There are so many songs, movies, books and shows that will now, and probably forever, remind me of Quarantine. These are my top 5 favorites…

I’m looking forward to 2021… I don’t know what the next year has in store, but I pray for health and happiness for all of us!